Passion

There are times when I get so frustrated. It's a weird frustration more irritation I guess. I want to do something really bad make something happen and yet I can't. Mentally with myself i am more then ready its that one little thing though that holds me back. Like when I get into "movie mode" I just throw everything I have into the process I don't hold back anything. I spend every second thinking about trying to figure out how to do the more intricate scenes. My whole bedroom turns into an office with cork boards on the walls of eleborate story boards, dialog, filming locations, scheduale, and checklists. My floor is covered in prop and costume bins and I thrive in that, unfortunately anyone who wants to make a movie with me just can't handle it and falls away, by I can't help it, I dont want to help it. I love that about me and yet it's so hard to only do a movie with one of me. I hope that made sense and didn't sound like I was just rambling along. Here is a picture of how I feel.