Ashram Life

I have had two expirences of ashram life. One living in an ashram in India, a very rustic, simple life which I have already talked about a lot. And then numero dos My american ashram life. Now I think I have already explained this, but for the sake of this entry I am about to explain it agian. My family used to have an extreanly 'green' almost hippy (in my opinion) life. We lived in the village of Yellow Spring, home of bicycles and tie dye. I walked to school every day and my family bought almost everything right in town. Going to mall or walmart was extreamly rare.
Then we met Swamiji and two years later moved to the very conservetive VERY American town of Delaware. At first my sister and I were so furious and angery at our parents. I lot and i repeat a LOT has happened since then. I started going to high school, I have been to India twice, my connection with swamiji is not a tread anymore, but a rope of steel. Oh yes and I started to meditate. Well anyhow lately I have been so appriciative of living so close to the temple. It's not really an ashram, well not like Bidadi anyway with a fenced compound, a welcoming gate ect. But it is an ashram all the same. My house is a 10 minute walk from the temple down a pretty country road. Same as the distance from my dormatory to the temple in India. There are many days, like tonight where i will come home from school, tired and a bit stressed. Pack up a few items for school and then walk to the temple. There I will eat a snack and then sit sometimes right in the sancuary to do my homework. It gives me a lot of calmness. Like just being there makes me settle, sometimes this is obvious on the outside, and sometimes not. Sometimes it fills me brimming with energy and I get really hyper, but on the inside I am still very calm. At the temple there is always someone I can talk to if I am having trouble with something. Sometimes it is a person, another volunteer, but sometimes I get even better help. Help from the divine!
So overall ahram life is great! I am not saying it is all calmness and fun though, it can be really hard seeing the same people EVERYDAY sometimes it is really hard, and plus its not just seeing each other, like in school, but everyone is working on their spiritual path and so sometimes people have really unexpected emotions. Ok thats all for today!!

excitment

It is a cold, rainy September night. I am sitting in my living room on the couch sipping a hot mug of tea and nibbling on a cookie. In other words to quote Julie Andrews "these are a few of my favorite things!" Despite how much I love this something happened today that I loved even more. So as today is a Monday I went to equi-valent stable for the weekly class. Before it started on of the kids came and rode a horse for the first time. He rode Bolt, the little pinto pony. The joy I felt was so intence I was practically laughing! I don't know ..... there was just something about this small boy riding a horse for the first time... the rain drumming on the roof, the whickering of the horses. And then Bolt! I mean that spunkey little acted as if this was the most important thing in the world to keep that boy safe upon his back. I can't really even describe in words the feeling a had seeing boy and pony relax as I led them around the ring but if there is magic in the world that was it. It was one of those moments where If I had died right then I would have been happy. The really amazing thing to realize if I wasn't happy for my self but for him and Bolt, but the joy and happiness eminating through me, towards them made me in well ..... Bliss!
so all I can say in thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank you Swamiji!!!!!

The higher being

Dear readers....
I want to share with you a thought that I have been having lately. When I am in the marching band I find it very silly how even though it is an activity that is for the kids partisipating the teachers and instructers punish and yell at us when we do something wrong. I truly don't understand this concept of when the people want to do something the leaders abusing their role. Ok I'm sorry I don't extactly know what I am saying.... I geuss I kind of want people to be aware what they are doing when they lead a group, not being "in charge" but helping you go along. I just want to write that here.... put it out in the world. My expirence of people abusing their power. Ok thats all for now!!
Please tell me what you all think about the matter of this.

What is the point?

Ok so I have been wondering lately what is the point of life? I mean some people think the point is to make money, some people go way animal and think it is to reproduce the human population. My dear Swamiji says the point of Human life is to be come enlightened. But really, I mean is it just that I will meditate until I get enlightened... and then what. I seriously don't think there is a point of life! I read in one of Swamiji's books, I can't remember which one, that once you start really asking this question your spiritual journey has begun, so thats good. But I want some answers, why do people keep going through the same suffering and depression. I remember times when I lived in the Ashram and in India when I was traveling with my mom and friends when I really didn't care what was happening in the world. I ate when I wanted food and there was a place to do it, I slept when I felt tired not when somebody told me to sleep or eat. The other thing I simply wasn't concerned with what happened..... I was just iving! I wish I could be like that agian, but it is really hard. I have to sleep so I can stay awake the next day. My parnts pressure me to eat when they want me to, not when I feel like eating. Then there is Marching band, I don't know if that is the best thing I should be doing my mind keeps saying "oh this isn't spiritual" but really when I am doing (for the most part) I am living in the present and having a great time, and if there is no point to life, then whats wrong with it! But then you could go and argue about abou smoking, alcohal, TV, all that stuff. I mean where is the fine line drawn. Thankfully those things are not a problem for me. I think as long as I am blissful, and healthy it is fine. That should be my current policy. Alright There is an end to my rambeling, about the picture of the day.... I don't know! Like a warning you should apprichiate what you have!

My Day out of School!

So today I had the day off of school due to Delaware's famous Little Brown Jug harness race. I got up not to early, but at a resonable time and went to the temple for Nithya Dhyaan. It was very nice, just me and my mum where there, and the walk to the temple was so nice although it is only a 10 minute walk that 10 minute route from my house to the temple is quite lovely.
Later on Mum and I went for lunch at Pannera and shared a tomato mozzerela sandwhich. Something we haven't done for a while now, then we came home. I have started a baking bussiness that I am calling this Blissfull Bakery (details later!) So anyhow I got my first two orders at the begging of the week, and so I baked them today, boxed them up, and then went to the temple for the eavening. I love baking even though I usually get totally exhusted by it, I still find it quite fun. (You will hear all about my baking life in another entry.) Had a nice evening at the temple, sometimes I am anxious when I am there but most of the time I feel pretty calm. Tonight though was amazing I felt soooo peaceful. I took part in a pooja (ritual) and I felt really connected to the deity it was for, and most of the time I never feel connected to that deity! So yep thats all for today. Really that the way I would love to live, no schedual just flowing...... Maybe in four years (when I am out of high school) I can do that.... we will see. Ok more soon!

Rain

Agian I don't have much to write. So I wany to write about the rain! There's nothing wrong with that..... right?
Some people really hate rain the way it constricts there freedom, but not me! I love every singe minute of a downpour. The way it gives you an oppurtunity to curl up with a good book and a hot cup of tea. Or the way it makes the simple daily tasks such as getting grocceries a whole adventure! I love the coolness, the chill, and the comferting sound of rain pounding on a roof. I like the look of rain, and especily the smell of rain before, during, and after a rain shower. I really like the monssons in India where it would pour for like an hour and we would all the huddeled in the girls dorm (this was when I was at Inidan Boarding School, The gurukulum at the Nithyananda Puri) and the rain was to hard to go outside and then when it stopped we would go outside and there would be rivers and streams literly everywhere! And lots of toads jumping about (India has a lot toads) Ok people there is my thoughts on rain..... If you want to hear more interesting tales from this teen please give me some ideas!!!!

Thoughts from My Animal Lover's Mind

Alright so I have been thinking intesly on this one thing for a while and would like to share it with you.
I have been working and living around animals since... well even before I was born! not just your normal dogs and cats either but also chickens, rabits, horses, llamas, cows, and by the way I have lived in a town my whole life. Most of my life I haven't thought on the concept of humans, and then animals, but know something has brought this idea to my mind. I am reading this book for English Class: The 7 habits of highly effective teens bu Sean Covey. It talks about how we as humans have many advantages that animals do not, such as imagination, thinking beyond the present moment, as well as others. I started really paying attention when around animals my own two cats, the horses at Equi-Valent, and the animals at the county fair (which is going on right now.) I feel that animals are not so different then humans they are simply in a differnt body causing them to have a different brain, which causes them to have differnt instincts which cause them to act in differnt ways. I don't know If I am making this two clear, but I feel what I am trying to say is contrary to many's beliefs I feel animals 100% have emotions, and most of all intelligence. Ok just wanted to state that here! Thats all for today!

My life continues

Alright Mates!
So I don't have anything wonderfuly spiritual to write about today. Please people I havn't even been writing for one month and I am started to run out of things to write about. Comment some ideas.

Today I woke up early (thanks to school) went to school, learned my lessons, came home did some things around the house, went to Doller General, went to the Library, came home, At 5:00 I went to equi-valent for the second class. It went much differently from the first, but I really enjoyed it. This time two kids didn't show up and it was just three of them. We started off the class by brings in 15 of the horses from the pastures into their stalls and then feeding them. The kids learned about how to communicate with horses, that was the theam of this class. The highlight was that we had set up a small obstical course each child had to go to a mailbox and open it (although it one case the horse opened the mailbox! That would be Bolt the little pinto pony) They got instructions about what to do and then had to do something with the obstical course.

I was working with this one girl who really didn't want to listen she just wanted to do things her way. We got her letter which said to turn right and go through two sets of cones. She just wanted to do it fast so she could ride Ranger (her favorite horse) But I wouldn't her. I made her talk through what she had to do and calm down first. She started to but then couldn't figure it out. Finally she realized what I wanted her to do and thought of a better way. "i'll just demonstrate for you" she said. In some cases you wouldn't want kids to do this, but I realized she had stopped and recollected even though to her she just felt like I was slowing her down. She could do it and did it perfectly. I felt it was a major accomplishment. For both of us!

I am so thankfull to Swamiji for putting me into this horse stable, I am still not sure where it fits into my cosmic plan, BUT, I am sure it does!

Excesty

I had this subject I was going to write about, but now in my bed late at night with abba music playing from my laptop's speakers. Maya purring her head off and attempting to find a comfertable place on feet I honestly can't remember. Staying with my current expirence theam I am going to write about something. That recently happened to me about an hour ago. Well I have to admit I have been pretty stressed out lately between school, marching band, temple..... there is just so much to do and so little time! Tonight at the temple there where only three of us. My dad, one volunteer, and I. My dad was taking care of temple stuff the volunteer was cleaning the kitchen, and I was just kind of hanging out. Suddenly one of the major dance songs came on and I went in and just started to dance. My dad was taking care of some other things and I was alone in the sancuary. The music was loud, I spinned, jumped, and simply let go of everything. Dancing for anandaswara (the main god) as if my life depended on it! It was such a beutiful expirence, I am so greatful to be able to do things like that. Many teens try to releave stress in horrid ways that destroy their bodies, and hearts. But thanks to the temple and Swamiji I don't have to do that to fall in bliss, all I needed was some music and an empty room (although if others had been there it woulden't have stopped me) and I 100% fell into bliss. It was so nice, you really should try that sometime. Dance for know reason, like no one is watching no set moves, just dance. I promise you it will help EVERYTHING!
Till next time!
(just a peice about the picture this crow is in bliss..... it had just stolen my breakfast OFF the table! It flew up too the branch of that tree and gobbeld it I had my camera and snapped that picture!

to Unclutch

Hallo everyone! So sorry I haven't been writing these pass few days. I will make it up to you.
So today we had our first Marching Band competetion. You are probebly thinking. Oh please not all her talk about her band agian! But today I have something very spiritual. So we drove the two hours to the competetion in Centerville. We got there did our warmup, dressing, hairspray, hats, gauntlets and gloves. All that stuff and then go lined up two by two to march onto the field. We were next. Now I don't get stage fright really, I mean I can easily just stand up and talk in front of a hundred people with no problem, but this was differnt. As we heard the drum clicks by belly got butterflys, and my mind totally started racing. "I don't think we are good enough yadda yadda." Then I just had the thought "well that is really stupid (to be thinking like that." I went into my Ananda Ghanda a energy center that is between your heart and belly button. Mine was activated by Swamiji so I am able to access it's energy and heal people. At the same time it help to 'heal' other things. Well this was working pretty well for a few seconds, but even though I had fallen into that chakra, and it was helping with the butterflys my mind was still racing, and on top of that I couldn't fully focus on only my Ananda Ghanda because, well I had to march in step, holding my flute perfectly, you know, I hope. Well I started to uncluth, or simply let go of the thoughts in mind. A technique I learned directly from Swamiji in India. My thoughts were instantly cleared! Even I was amazed.

We continued to march forward. We where now through the gates and onto the track that surrounds that football field. We marched about a quarter of the way around it when I kinda had a mantal freakout, sunddenly I thought. "If I where Swamiji right now what would I do?" My first thought was Swamiji would never be in my spot, but I quickly let that one go and my mind came up with something else for me.
If I where Swamiji right now I would be totaly unworried, and relaxed. On top of that I would be having sooooo much fun, and I simply decided to do it! Then I did, and it just felt so good. Like I didn't have to worry anymore about getting it right.
Well to make a long story short we didn't qualify in any classes or place. We got a 2, which stands for good. Not superior, but good. I was a little bit disapointed, but not that much. During the show I was so clear what to do and when. And my mind was totaly black excpet for making sure I was doing the right move, and ocasionly reminding myself about a coming move that I normally forget. See the thing is I am not to good with techniques like those two. the first two are very quiet for me, and I honestly never tried the third one in a big situation like that. So I just wanted to tell all you of that interesting exspirence. the picture is when I got henna done to my hands in India. Thank You Swamiji!!!!!

School life

Ok I know I promised to write everyday, and I didn't write the last two. I will catch up on those though, I promise you.... whomever you are. Now I could make a long list of excuses WHY I didn't write the past two days, but I won't I am simply going to write!
Alright so there has been this thought poking the back of my brain for about a week now, but I never could really figure out what it was. Today in my second period (English actuly) it hit me! What is the point of school? Well to get an education, duh! But it is more then that. I realized that everyday. EV-ER-Y single day I was learning so many things, I could complain about going to school, or I could take advantage of this oppurtunity I am getting. Another part of it is that in history class we have been studying a lot of different countires around the world, the country that was my main focus was Afghanistan. They only have a 28.1 % litercy rate, and girls pretty much are not ever GIVEN the chance! So I have decided to take advantage of my educatio. Then my realization went even farther. Right before I started High School I was bessed to do well by PARAMAHAMSA NITHYANANDA a living enlightend master. A saint, a mystic.... So I should excel this year. Also he blessed me that I do well, there for I have to do my part, I cant just leave it up to my Guru to complete my education for me though blessing. I actuly have to do the work, like taking notes, and studying part. So that is my latest goal, I will report back soon!

Equi Valent

So today I had my first lesson at equi velent riding center. I wasn't directly taking a lesson, but everything in life is a lesson right? Well there were five kids. I am not going to explain in detail what we did, but I will say they seem like nice kids, I mean yes they all need a tune up here and there, but that is what the rising program is for, right? We didn't actually ride today but worked on the word respect as the big picture and did things such as bring in horses from the pasture, feed them, brush them down, and watched as they where beig walked around the ring. I held the horses while this was happening, I was a little nervous, I think. I didn't realize this at the time, but you know, it wasn't a place I was familiar with, and I was kinda expected to know it, I think I did OK though. My big thing was I was asked to handle horses, which I mean I am fine with, but I didn't know their style, so I was a little unsure of what to do. As time passes I am sure I will know a little more about it.
So uncertainty, I experienced it today, and didn't yet fix it, but that will come later, first step identify, which I did.
I have a lot of school tests tomorrow wish me luck! Oh and this picture is of a horse I used to ride name Push.

make up (not the beauty kind!)

Alright, I know that I did not write yesterday. It was really late when I started my entry, and when I actuly started the writing part the internet in my house. I was to tired to fix it, so I just promised myself to make it up and then went to sleep. I am now laying in bed writing and drinking a mug of tea. I think this is the earliest I have gone to bed in about 10 months. (it is just a little before ten pm) So my tital is make up, I am making up for yesterday's entry so I didn't have anything in mind, just to write the entry.
Oh Now I remembered what I was going to write about, so yesterday I marched with my school band in the all horse parade. The only one on this side of the Mississippi River. I am not a parade fan (either marching or watching) in the first place, so I wasn't looking forward to it anyway, but the reality, it was worse then I thought.
Now I have to tell of my expirence, when we got our position and where waiting for about 45 minutes for the parade to start I was really thirsty but no amount of water would satisfy me. We finally started marching.the first half mile was fine, after then my energy and enthusiasm just went downhill. I thought I wouldn't be able to make when Mr. R, our teacher said you guys are more then halfway, three quarters of the way!! I practically crumpeled at this statment. You could think about it two ways, one that that the parade was almost finished, or 2. You still had more to march! The second was my thoughts exactly. I seriously didn't know what to do.
Suddenly I heard my name being called I looked over and saw Mrs. Schnaars, who is my most favoritest teacher ever. She called my name and waved to me, this helped and pushed me forward a little bit. A bit farther on I saw my eighth grade english teacher Mrs. Heald, another favorite teacher of mine. She also waved and cheered us, between them I got a burst of energy to keep going and finished up the parade strong.
This about this expirence the way you wish, but to me it was a very inspiring thing how I litary thought I couldn't make it, and then suddenly my two favorite where just there cheering me on! So thats yesterdays blurb!!

Horses

Ok guys,
Something really cool happened today. Now I have always really liked horses, I started riding them when I was just eight years old and have been around them ever since. In june I started riding at a place called Fox Tail Farms, but really i didn't like it much. It was all about getting ready for the next horse show. I met this woman whom I will call Jessenia here at a play my sister was in. She has a horse stable, I went and visited it and it seemed nice, but the lessons were pretty expensive, so I didn't sign up. Then I got an email, that she wanted me to volunteer for this program they are putting on. It is four weeks long for two hours. It is for children with disabilities. I will help by interacting with the children and just kind of being an assistent, for example next Monday (the first lesson) I willl hold the horses leads and make sure that they are staying good ponies while the kids are grroming them and such. i am sure stuff about working with this program will come up a lot, so I just wanted to tell you that. It also feels very spiritual somehow, although I can't quite put my fingeer on it. The picture was taken a year and half back with a minature horse named Gem after the picture was taken he bit my butt!
Ok more tomorrow!

My Life Recap

Dear World's Citizens
because I really can't think of anything else to write I am going to give you a recap of my life. So I am a 15 year old.
Irish/English/German/Dutch/Welsh roots. Mostly English on my mom's side and pure Irish on my dad's. I am a highschool freshman in my third week of school. I partisipate in the Delaware Hayes Grand Pacer Marching Band, where I play the flute. We practise three days a week and have shows on friday nights at the half time of football games. On many Saturdays we go to cometitions. Now here comes the actully important part. The thing my life is truly centered around is The Ohio Nithyananda Vedic Temple. My family moved to Delaware in 2008 so we could be near it. I spend a great deal of time there when I am not at marching band or school that is usuly where I can be found.
I am also honored to say I am a disiple and devotee of Paramahamsa Nithyananda, or as I call him Swamiji. I wear his picture on a mala around my neck, the inside of my locker has only Swamiji's photos so that when I open it I will be reminded of my smiling Guru's face.
Besides those things I really like taking care of and riding horses, being with any and all animals, gardening, baking, cooking exotic foods, camping outside, building campfire, and many many other things that the list would get far to long. Oh one main thing I like is anything to do with string. I love that! Ok that was todays entry, I know it wasn't totaly THIS blog material, but now you know more about who you are reading about if you have never met me, so thats good! Today's picture was taking at the ocean in South India. The place where the three seas (Indian Ocean, Bay of Bangal, and Arabian Sea) all meet. We had been traveling for over 12 hours by train and this picture shows my joy at finally reaching the sea. Ok more tommorow!

Loosing Embarresment

My Dear Ones,
Today's topic is loosing embarresment. Today I had a lot of doses of that antidote to ego. In my english class I forgot part of my homework, now this may not seem like a big thing, but english is my favorite class, with my favorite teacher, so I want to do really good in there. Also my teacher was acting really disapointed in me. At the end of class I went to him and asked what I could do to make it up. Now in certain things I am fine asking, but in some cases I hate it. I don't really know where the line is drawn, I do realize though that I am able to tell people things without embarresment eaisier lately. I got over that though and was ok. In Science class agian I had a situation I would have been going over in my head for hours wondering if I did something wrong, but I was amazed at myself. I was just able to do it. Ok what's it?

I my science class I sit in the very centre of the classroom. There is this one girl who sits katty corner to me. She is a cheerleader, extreamly inmature..... I sure all of you can visulize. Well she thinks she is all that and was stage whispering to her friend who sits behind me. After half an hour of this I simply decided not to let this continue. I mean I could try zoning out her, but in the case the teacher's voice would go out of my "zone" and that would defeat the whole point so i simply said to her "Hannah?" "what?" she repied slightly rudly "Stop talking. " I know that sounds a little rude, but I have been around people like her my whole life and being gracious never gets through to them. You have to be abrupt and direct. The good thing is she stopped talking. Although after blubbering for a few seconds "wh... a.... how ... who are you?"

Now as I said before three years ago I would have imidetly gotten embarresed, apoligized and wouldn't be able to consentrate for the rest of that day because of shame. But in this case I was able to simply smile and continue with my day. I felt so good and liberated, I could stop something that was obstructing me, just with two words AND best of all it didn't pull me down. About the picture this was taken in Kanya Kumari, India. I really love this picture and this is the first picture I am sharing of my own human form! Now if there are any pictures you would like me to post please feel free to tell me. I will be overjoyed to!

The poison of Ego

Well my Dears,
This may be a short entry because it is late, and a school night, but here we go.
So I have the urge to write about ego today. This is probebly a subject I will stop back in on later in the year, but this is my first shot at it.

So let me start out by saying straight out and truthfully I do have a very big ego. I have many talents. I know this am proud of it, and in some cases that gives me a pretty big ego. Worst then that I HATE when people tell me what to do, which is all ego. Now for your purpose reading this I want to make it clear that ego is not just thinking you are the best yadda yadda. That is th obvious ego, but then there is another kind of ego, subtle ego it is called, this is like when you refuse to dance, or sing, or even though you want something you say "oh no no I don't want it, you take it." this is subtle ego. Almost every human being on planet earth suffers from one, the other, or a combination of these two poisons. The fast five days my ego was way up, my mind was totally coming in. The result i have been fighting with my family and totaly being a pill. Then today I really broke down and called my best friend, who I have mentioned and just talked about everything to her for about half an hour. She just listened then I the end of our conversation I said "You know.... I think I know what is wrong with me now, it's my ego. It way to up! And that was that. I have felt a lot better since then. Well it wasn't just that, I swallowed my ego and apoligized to my family as well, then after fighting the ego back down I have felt better. So that's my little blurb of the day..... the poison of ego, you can't fight it, it will win. You must simply defeat it. Till next time!

Fun & Fear

Well my friends
Here I am again and I haven't yet run out of things to say. Lets hope I don't because other wise reading would get very boring. So when we moved into the house we are currently living the people had six boats. In agreement of buying the house they gave us one of these, a 17 foot canoe. This boat is one of my most prized possessions, and will probably become more so... I don't know. Anyhow, to the story. Today my dad and I took out the boat which I have named the Paramahamsa (par. a. ma. ham. sa.) After both Swamiji, the word for swan in Sanskrit and the last part is a sacred symbol in the east, I don't really know what. OK so today we decided to go canoeing, problem one. How do you get a 17 foot metal canoe on top of a 6 1/2 foot tall van?
I don't really know where it came from but I had the idea we could use a board and an old blanket and pull it up. The plan worked.
We finally got to the lake and after a bit of struggle got the boat down and into the water. We got in and started to paddle. I was in the prow and dad was steering, at the stern of the boat. Now this is where the fear and fun comes into play. It was very windy out, and plus as it is Labor Day many people where out in pontoon or motor boats in the water. In other words there where really tall waves. Hamsa (as I will call her) would go uuuuuup on a wave and come crashing down into the water and I would get wet. Now on one hand I could be scared, we're in a canoe for heaven's sake! We could tip over! But then I realized the fun side of it. the rest of the time cutting through the water was quite fun. I don't get fearful much, at least of physical things. I am not scared of heights, spiders, talking in front of crowds those kinds of things. It's OK to be scared, but really if you die, you die! Why worry? So I realized today how even if something is scaring you except you are scared, and then have fun!
I did not get a picture of our little adventure, but I will next time. Thanks for reading!

Exsitence

Hallo my dears!
I love calling people dear no matter who they are so, people reading my blog.... get used to it. I was thinking this evening how amazing it is that existence provides EXACTLY what you need when you need. Even if in that time you don't know that's what you want.
Give today for example I have wanted to try out this new recipe I got for coffee cake for a while. So finally today I had a few hours to do it. My younger sister was going to help me, but at the last minute decided not to and instead spent the whole time kind of insulting my baking. Very frustrating. Well I did some Internet surfing to cool down, then turned on music as high as it would go and started my project. I finished and besides one little mistake (if I don't make at least one mistake it wouldn't be a proper baked goodie!) got it in the oven. Then I did some bedroom organizing with my Dad, I am redecorating my room into an Asian theme. Got the cake out of the oven and was waiting for it to cool, I went onto my facebook and my best friend was on. Now just a little background about her we met in December in India, she is practically like my twin, unfortunately I live in Ohio and she lives in Issaquah, Washington. We met over the summer for a week though. Anyhow we have been out of contact for about a week because she was on vacation. OK enough of that well. On the chat she asked if it was OK to call, I said yes and the phone rang. We talked about some regular stuff, baking mostly. Then we got into the topic of collage.
OK to some of the story since I don't really feel like writing our whole phone conversation, it made me feel really good, and that kept me excited the whole rest of the afternoon. So to sum up that whole thing It's like just when I was feeling down she called, as if the universe had told her "ah you, your best friend needs a booster can you help?"
OK that's all for now. By the way the picture of grapes? I don't know I took that pic at my friend's house. It is kind of cool don't you think? Has anything like this ever happened to any of you, I don't mean grapes like existence stepping in at the right moment?

My Dear Readers,
I am sitting in front of the computer, Maya, my little black kitten is laying beside me purring like a choo choo train. The room is quite cold. Well the windows are open and it is chilly out.
Ok so I know this blog hasen't seemed to spiritual, if that is what you are reading it for. But really Spiritualiy is how you live your life!
Ok story time, I just mentioned Maya my kitten. I will tell you how she came to be living with me. On my birthday this summer (July 12) I turned 15 years old. I had been wishing for a pet for awhile. We used to have so many pets, but at that point in time we had only one cat Leah, who was my younger sister's baby (and still is). So yeah I wanted a pet, now I am not really a cat person and was thinking more along the lines of a hamster or parakeet. Two of my good friends were coming over for a sleepover, when they got out of the car they said "ooo you got a kitten she is soooo cute!" And I was like what are you guys talking about? we don't have a kitten. They walk to our shed and there was this tiny little black kitten with blue eyes sitting there. later in the day we coxed her out from under the shed and sat in a circle while she went from one of our laps to another. We all suggested many names, but none seemed quite right, then my sister said the name Maya. We all liked it, short, sweet and to the point. Also in sanskrit the name Maya means illosion which seems like a good name for a black cat, especilly a little kitten. Over the course of the two weeks we ended up adopting to her into our family. She loved to attack our other cat's tail, play with her toys, check on plants, hunt (mostly bugs) but most of all she LOVES being petted. She will just come and lay on your lap and purr. I feel she is really special (although I geuss everyone with a pet feels that way about his or her own pet) like she was a person in her last life, and now she is an animal, but I feel like I already knew her. i don't know how but I do. The picture is of her on the day she showed up. Alright that's all for today more later!!

Marching Band!!!

Go pacers!
Sorry, just got back from a football game. Not that i go to football games like a lot of teens, but as I am in the marching band it is required. So yep, it was an away game, we lost. 13 to 42. Ouch. Besides the fact it was ridiculously cold for this time of year, although I live in Ohio, so that's understandable. It was pretty fun. I almost finished the scarf I have been working on for the past three months, I have just the tiniest bit more. And they also had really good hot chocolate at their concession stand. We were playing Olentangy by the way. Anyhow getting on with it. Went to school today wasn't to bad. Well we had to go to an assembly which was not the funnest but at least I got to sit by some friends I normally don't sit next to thanks to assigned seats so that was great. It is 11:11 pm right now, which may not seem to late to some of you, but when you have been at school all day then preformed at a football game blowing some of that wonderful life force into my beautiful instrument, and then sang your self hoarse on the way home (Disney songs, mostly Lion King)... yeah I want to be getting to bed. Sorry that wasn't the most interesting entry for some of you. But just thing about as FYI about my non-ish spiritual life and how in reality I am a pretty regular person, even if I am different (does that make sense?) OK comment please!

Living in the present

My Dear Readers,
So today I have a present and past story combination to tell all you. Today at school one of my friends was having a minor crises because of her grade on a test. She kept freaking out about how her dad WOULD act when she got home. I kept telling her "well he's he is not doing anything right now, is he? We are sitting here on a water break (this was at marching band practice) having a god time!" As I said this it kinda made me realize how I do the same thing I was telling her NOT to do, but what I realized even more was how in the past six months I have really stopped doing that. I used to be terrible at predicting a situation, freaking out for a few hours, and then realizing it didn't even come to pass, but since I was in India and came back, I really don't do that anymore! Just a little realization I wanted to share.
Now I promised to tell about my trip to India, the four months in which I became a whole new person. This is one situation I will probably refer back to a lot as it was probably the most memorable two weeks of my life! I was helping out practically 24/7 at the temple in the Ashram where I was living. One thing about those two weeks was I never really thought. I mean like past five minutes. I had three four saris. Two white ones and two colored ones it took 24, to 48 hours to get your laundry back from the laundry hut, so I always had at least one to wear. My only pair of sandels had been stolen so I just walked about barefoot. Lunch, breakfast, and dinner were all cooked and served by the kitchen team, so I didn't need to worry about that. I just went to the temple and did what I needed to do. The other thing was there really wasnt rutein. I clearly remember one day the head preist said to me "We need to have a nice homa tonight. Please go set it up, it should be ready an about in hour." (a homa is an eleborate fire ritual)I started spulttering "I don't know how, isn't there anyone else? How can we get the whole thing done in a hour?" "he simply replied "do it" I said "Ok" and somehow it happened it got done. Thats what can happen when you are living in the now, the present moment things just fall into place.
I hope I havn't made this entry to long, and I hope I made myself clear. Feedback greatly appriciated. Thanks for reading!

Intro

An open road is before us! Alright the, let me get to the point this blog is going to record two major things for the next one year. I am going to say this straight out, I am horrible at keeping something going for an extended period of time so I am going to set a date. Today is September first. The perfect day, in my opinion, to start a blog. I will keep this blog up n the next September first that comes. So Get Ready set and Read!
I have been asked to write this blog by my Enlightened Master and Guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda. As I am one of the few teens in his mission he asked me to write a blog about my experiences. To write a blog simply about the past, would get boring for me, so I will intersperse those stories (or Tales) with my modern day life. I will write one post for each day of the next year, and will include pictures. One goal I have while writing this blog is to find three things that happened in my life. #1. something that was spiritual #2. I will find gratitude about at least one thing, and #3. If a situation didn't go well at school I will record it here, and try to understand how that situation helped me to grow as a human being. This should be a very positive blog. For now though this is journal entry one. Day one. 364 more days to go!