Overflowing Love

Hey Blissful Ones!
I just came home from spending my evening at the temple. Before I leave the building I always make sure to say good bye to the deities just like one would say good bye to a friend before leaving. Well I stood at the enterence to the main temple and gazed into Anandaswara's face he had this huge smile on his face and a laugh bubbeled out not because anything was funny, but because I felt such joy a smile coulden't even express it! I walked a few more steps into the room and did Namaskar to the deity. I then sat up and gazed at him again I felt such overflowing love toward Anandaswara. Like so much love to him inside of me it couldn't even stay into my body! And even now, half an hour later I am still feeling intense pure love. It doesn't feel directed at any one or thing anymore I am just ... in love.
I have a batch of Cinnamon rolls (made 100% from scratch!) in the oven, it's the first time I am ever baking them, and they have to come out in two minutes (litarly) so I will go for now.

Bliss Project Darshan

Hello my Bliss Buddies!
How are you all? I haven't heard from anyone in a while AKA please comment!

OK so on the last day of NSP everyone got to have e-Darshan with Swamiji. Besides the fact you can't get a physical touch from Swamiji e-Darshan is still very great. Well sparing you guys the details of everything I told Swamiji all about my Science Project, you know the Bliss Project. He told me the project will be successful AND as if that where not that I and my whole team will levitate! I am not saying I am not grateful though ... I very much am!

So then today (three days later) I gave each member of the project a letter, a survey, and an invitation to a sort of "nithya dhyaan" party. Nithya dhyaan is easier and more fun to do in a group so after about six weeks of meditating alone, hopefully it will be an inspiration. I got one survey back and it said that the days the participant did Nithya dhyaan she was more happy and that day was usually "drama free". So that was just one, I can't wait to write about if this is a motif and what other participants say!! Keep checking in!

P.S. By the way (do I use that sentence to much?) this picture is what it looks like outside my house right now

My Sleep

Good night ... zzzzz
Ok so remember in my last entry how I told you guys about sleeping on the floor in the pantry?
Well last night was my first night back in my old bed. OK a few words about my bed so you understand where I am coming from. I have this really old antique rope bed. My mom remodeled it for me when I was about I don't know three or something, maybe five. So it's sort of a special bed, plus I really like old fashioned stuff so I like it for that reason. Anyway I went to bed last night after watching Swamiji's morning message which I hope everyone who is reading this blog is watching! (http://www.dhyanapeetam.org/web/en-tv-live.aspx) so that was at about 11:00 pm I had school the next day so I wanted to go to bed relitvly early. But I wasn't tired yet, plus I had a new book. So I read for half an hour. At 11:30 I glanced at the large photo of Swamiji that hangs on my wall opposite my bed held my mala asked Swamiji to make sure I slept with no dreams and then closed my eyes. And lay there. and lay there some more. and turned over. And started thinking about school.
Finally I rolled out of bed threw a couple pillows on the floor grabbed my yoga mat, layed it down and curled up, wrapped in a fuzzy blanket and some quilts. I was then able to fall asleep. So I don't really know what that's about, I have never had a problem sleeping in my bed before, but it seemed to big, and ... squishy. The floor was nice and firm and my yoga mat, I gotta tell you is not the big. So think what you will mayhap my body is just getting yogic, teenage yogic!

Sleeping with the Divine

So as I said in my last entry I stayed at the temple for four days during NSP. Obviously in those four days I had to get some sleep. And sleep it was! This blog entry will tell you about those four divine sleeps. OK the first night I felt really weird about sleeping while everyone else was still awake and working even though I was really tired. Mom had brought a mattress but I have never liked those mattresses. Finally after sneaking away from Sindu twice as she tried to make me sleep at 2:00 am I lay down on the carpeted floor in the pantry wrapped in a think wool blanket. I still couldn't get to sleep very well because Amalee and Sindu where cleaning the kitchen, which the pantry opens into, and kept stepping over me (I was kind of laying in the door way) So then I rememberd a tecnique I learned a while back, and used it. I lay there and imagined I was resting my head on the lap of the divine. I immediately feel asleep. Not only was i able to fall asleep it was the most beautiful sleep I have had since I got back from India. I remember waking up sometime in the night and Sindu was laying next to me, she was awake and smiled at me and I remember thinking that I really one of the luckiest people in the world.
Over the next three days my "bed" got a little more elaborate. The second night I took two blankets and one pillow, the third night I had two blankets, a shawl, a pillow, and slept on my very cushy yoga mat. I slept like this the fourth night as well. I still slept on the pantry floor, and I gotta say that is no feather bed. There are two more things that really added to this sleep experiences, well 2 and 1/2 the first is every morning about 7 when I would wake up on the floor from my warm little nest mantras and Nithyananda spiritual songs would be playing, second from my sleep state I would go straight either to the temple or to Swamiji on the screen and having divine energy be the first thing you focus on in the morning is super special. Ok so here I have enclosed some pictures of my "bed" and "bedroom" I just felt this want to write of this experience here. I don't, didn't know how sleep can effect you, I mean at a physical layer obviously, but I mean at a emotional, mental, and spiritual layer how much sleep can effect you. I think if I had been sleeping any other way then I wouldn't have been able to keep going the way I did. So comment!

Living with God (literaly)

Hey everyone!
So the past four and a half days at the Ohio Nithyananda Vedic Temple we had a really amazing program called NSP, or life bliss program level two. The interesting thing about this program was that we did by India standards, AKA all night long. We went owl the past four days the temple volunteers and participants. Even the gods went nocturnal. The program sessions where at night, we had two meals a day at dusk and daybreak and lots of snacks in between. During that four day period my parents where extremely busy, my younger sister went to stay with a friend for the duration. I was volunteering a little, but I did bring a large bag of things to do. Some books, a journal, and my latest knitting project! Anyhow, the first night was sort of confusion, I didn't have anything to do, the main volunteers where busy busy busy. And that includes my mom, now any other thing, that week of NSP was the same week I had exams. So I have hanging out in the kitchen with two other volunteers who here I will call Sindu, and Amalee. Sindu, is about the same age as my mom, and is like a second mom to me, she acts like it too! Well she kept trying to make my go to bed, but I didn't really want to, I finally did and....
OK getting off topic, so living with god, what do I mean about this. Think about if you where sitting next to whatever you think of as god. How would it feel on a positive scale, words that come to mind are; invigorating, happy, blessed... I felt all of those things. For five days and four nights I ate, slept, and lived in the temple, and it was the most amazing experience, just like living with god. I mostly hung out in the kitchen, but the main sanctum sancturum is one room over and so you all ways see the main god. That's about all for now, many more NSP blog entries coming soon!
P.S. I wanted to include a picture, but for some reason unknown to me, it's not working, but I will get some for the next few entries!

Finally, at Last

So I guess this is a slightly out of context entry, but I really want to tell you all. So yesterday a group of 20 people, 17 kids and 3 adults came to the temple for a few hours. They where a school group, a world religion studies class. And first official school group to come. They did a lot of activites at the temple from watching poojas to nithya dhyaan, to a question and answer session. I think they really got a lot out of the day, but more then that ... for me I felt like it was a gift from Swamiji. At the temple a few young kids between the ages of one year and 10 years come, but I never really see people my age outside of school. But there in the temple where 17 people, all about my age!
About halfway through their stay they where taught Nithya Dhyaan, which I did with them. and even though it was shortened it was seriously its the same nithya dhyaan I talked about in yesterday's entry (which I only posted today) it was just really powerful and intense. So I just thought all you reading this might enjoy that. I have a lot of entries I want to write, so you should be hearing from me soon!

A Glimpse of the Zone

Nithyanandam!
How are you all? Ok quick background thing... lately Swamiji, and the nithyananda dhyanapeetam have been doing this sort of online thing called eN TV. There are various different things to watch, but by far the most amazing is the morning message and pratiksha paduka pooja. This happens everyday at about 10:00 pm EST, and all the various times that correspond with that all over the world. Basically it is a live streaming as this pooja, or ritual is done to Swamiji's feet. Then Swamiji gives a daily message to the world. All of it is extremely powerful. Lately Swamiji has decided to do a two way connection to his main temples, and centers around the world. By Shivarathi (March third) he says he will connect 108 centers all around the world, it will be spectacular.
Anyhow last night we had one of these connections, Sometimes Swamiji just reads off the names of the centers connected, but last night, even with so many other places connected (LA, San Jose, Seattle, New York, Singapore) Swamiji payed Special attention to Ohio telling us we would have the eN (Nithyananda/enlightened) effect and auspiciousness. Well when he does that it is like he is giving a powerful energy blast to that city. I mean you can feel it, even across all the miles, continents, you can feel his Energy. He talked about what the eN effect is, about levitation (many people have been experiencing this) and also when your "kundalini" is being awaken the different things that happen. One thing that may happen he said is your physical body will simply freeze, and inside you will feel a deep calm, peace, bliss... something along those line, although I am not able to remember his exact words. Later on he said "let Ohio have the eN effect" He had everyone from around the world sit in a certain posture with your fingers interlaced together (looks like a prayer hand gesture) called samana mudra. And put us into a deep meditation, well something happened that has never before happened, I instantly feel into that state he described where the body freezes. My meru danda, my spine, was perfectly straight. I was frozen still.... and it was amazing.
The next day, today when I did my daily Nithya Dhyaan it was THE MOST INTENSE nithya dhyaan I have ever experienced. So I really wanted to share that with you all hope you enjoyed!

A Melting Heart

Swamiji has a very special one day meditation program called Kalpataru. Basically you spend half a day doing special meditation and listen to powerful talks to zone in and find your one true desire. Then at the end Swamiji gives each person a powerful darshan and asks what you want and you tell him... and then it happens!
Well in the last meditation before the darshan there is a meditation, I am not quite sure what it is called, but anyway you sit there and an acharya says these words over and over again with proper gaps in between "Let your eyes pour, let your heart melt" I always got the eyes pouring part and I sort of got the heart melting part, but not exactly. I have done the Kalpataru program now more times then I can count but every single time I do it I simply cannot figure out how to let my heart melt.
So today months after the last Kalpataru in Ohio I am assisting Arathi. I sit there wiping off the handles of the different pieces, singing along to the music and staring into the face of beautiful Anandaswara. About halfway through I had the feeling that my heart was melting! I can't exactly describe how it felt, but I can say while my whole chest felt like my heart was melting I felt an intense love and compassion to everything, but then it all went away when arathi ended... it was a very interesting expirence that I wanted to share with you all.

The Starlight Miracle

Hey Dearest Readers!!!
So guess what? I have a miracle to tell you about, which honestly are my favorite things to write about, which is why I am so enthusiastic (and because I just finnshed a grueling half hour of geometry homework) anyway. So miracles, miracles, to tell this one properly I must start with a story.
Once a pone a time I lovely family lived in the town of Yellow Springs they had a Mommy, a Daddy, and two Girls, who tried to be nice but like most sisters didn't really get along. The family also had many pets, they had two dogs, three cats, 10 chickens, two rabbits, and a tank of goldfish. Well one day this family decided to move to a new town so they could live closer to a Vedic temple (hint hint, know who this family is yet?) unfortunatly they had to rent a house and this house did not allow pets, except for the goldfish. So they had to give them all away. The oldest sister has a beautiful long haired black and white cat named Starlight (get where this is going yet????) She gave Star to one of her good friends, Hyasinth. (not really her name but close) Well everyone lived happily for many years until one (last Frieday) day Hyasinth and her family called the Mommy and told her that they where moving and had to find a home for Star within the week, well the oldest sister had an idea. one of her friends who had been over just that day didn't have a cat because her's died, but she really liked them and wanted one again. So the oldest sister called her up and asked, and with in a few days the friend's family decided to try Star out for a few days.
That was Friday when the call was made. Today is Wednesday at five O' clock Star was brought to her house and settled right in, most cats hate that sort of change, but Star was fine with it!!

The most amazing thing is for the oldest sister, ok Me, is that now she lives less then five minutes away rather then a one and a half hour drive away in her old town, she has less other animals to contest with and a bigger house, my friend now has a pet cat and everyone one is happy

And the rode into the sunset...... The end!

Ok so yep thats the miracle! Sorry couldn't get a good picture of her, but when I write again to mention how she is doing, if you peeps care, I will get one. Cool? Ok Thats all for tonight good bye!!!

My Meditation

Hey everyone!
It's Monday, (at least for all us in Ohio) so back to school and work after a long weekend. On Saturday although it was really late, and so moved into Sunday a lot of centers from around the world had a video conference with Swamiji. It was really amazing, I know I few people where disappointed because the sound and picture of Swamiji and the other centers was not that great, but to me it was just an amazing experience, like literally sitting with Swamiji. He called Ohio's name out twice (he was giving each center attention talking to them excepting birthday cakes and arathi offerings etc. some more then other, but it was great) anyhow the first time he called Ohio, he told something along the lines of "you will have intense meditation" although those where not his exact words. So I sat cross legged and closed my eyes. The first thing I felt was like something exploding in my chest, and it felt all warm and tight, but it wasn't a bad feeling or anything, just a feeling.
That was the best meditation I have ever done in my life, I don't know how long I sat there, I cannot describe past what I just did what happened, but it was amazing. So thank you Swamiji for giving me that experience, and I just wanted to share it with you all.