Mind oh Mind

Hello readers!
How are all of you? Things have been super busy lately, but today my family is driving from Ohio to Vero Beach Florida to visit my Grandmother, and the drive is only 18 hours so I finally have a lot of to write! Not directly of course I am writing this in Open Office, and then will post later. It is 5:41 pm and we left at 4:00 am and can I tell you my butt is sore!
Anyway though that's not what I wanted to write about, although maybe I will later. What I really wanted to discuss was the past week. I have been going through all this internal struggle and I'm not sure if it is due to 2012 phenomenon, just being a teenager, or barn stuff. But Although I am activily living it, it is also interesting to watch what I am going through, sorry if that doesn't make any sence, but it's the only way to say it. I see myself starting fights with my little sister, getting mad, and getting irritated, then trying to calm myself down. The good thing is about watching this, since I have started doing it, I am a lot more aware of what I am doing and am starting to work on stopping myself my getting mad before it starts, although I am no where near perfect.
The other thing this week that is connected to this is I have realized a swift reduction of thoughts. It's just as if there is a big gapping hole in my mind that things I try and think about, and extra thoughts are falling into. On the one hand it is nice because I don't have thoughts constantly running throughout my head, but on the other it's frustrating. Like I was at the store yesterday trying to decide between two different clothing articles and I literally could not think about it my mind could not bend to the task, so I'm going to keep watching that and see what happens. I supposed I'll sign off with that, I cannot wait to write about my trip and post pictures. Mum has seen a Starbucks and is now ecstatic (as am I) who doesn't want liquid sugar?