Taking a Deep Breath and Letting Go. Level Two

Remember how I wrote about letting go of my fear about the roller coasters? Well I have taken that situation to whole new level. Yesterday evening I went to the barn as usual to ride April. As usual I walked around the barn giving a hello to each horse. That day there where only two horses in the barn Nathan and Star's horses Percy and Spirit. well I walk up to Percy to say hello as I always do and reached out a hand gently blowing as you are supposed to do when greeting horses. But instead of blowing back she reached out and bit me really hard on the nose. I touch my nose and realized blood was spurting out and and ran for the bathroom dripping blood everywhere at first I just thought Oh bloody nose! But then I washed it a bit and realized a whole chunk part of a nostril was missing. So naturally I kinda freak out (although stay relatively calm compared to some) although maybe I was in slight shock. I walk to the arena where Jessenia is teaching a lesson
"Uh Jessenia can you come here" when she saw my nose she went totally pale then quickly directed to senior volunteers one to take over the lesson the other to hold the extra horses and went to get Nathan and Star I was practically in tears, it hurt, and I mean my nose!!!! A whole chunk was gone. Those minutes seemed so long. I waited while Ivy (The one senior volunteer) just looked at me piteously. So Nathan and Star came and helped me into the kitchen where I sat down and they looked at my nose. Star talking to me gently and Nathan trying to contact my parents, and Jessenia got some gauze and stuff. Long story short and I am having to spend two days and two nights (Monday through Wednesday)here so far and we will see any future developments.
Anyhow I am having to live through my worst fear right now. Swamiji says face your fear and so I guess I had to do it sometime! I was literally shaking in fear of the thought of surgery. And all most in tears. I wasn't allowed to wear my mala, but I held in moving the beads through out my fingers, and chanting mantras under my breath. When I got to the operating room I was embarrassed because my night gown didn't fit. right, but then with just the doctors I got instantly calm, I didn't take a jug or anything. I refused all extra drugs, but the most very basic. As in I have had one tylanol for this whole time. Although I am starting to feel the pain.
To make an even longer story short, I am still a bit scared about my future surgeries, they have to do some skin graphs and I am scared about that, but getting through this. please comment!