I don't know what happened last night but I totally fell apart. Band was let out early and I couldn't get a ride home and when I got home finally (after finding a ride) and just lost it i tried for about two hours straight and was just really upset. It was a mixture of a lot of things partly maybe since I hadn't really eaten that day, I don't know what was up I just cried and cried though. Then it was time to go to the temple and I did and sat for arathi just taking these big deep breaths and I calmed down and just gazed at Anandaswara. I came home after my time there was done and sat with Maya for a while and then went to bed at a crazily early time for me (9:30!). Oh I forgot to mention one thing that happened that is really off topic, but cool. When I get frustrated as I have said before I go outside to relax, I did this at one point and jumped on my trampoline and for the first time in five years landed a full front flip. One day I just decided I couldn't do them anymore and stopped, but I wanted to see if I could still do them and I can!
Ok so then this morning I woke up feeling great so I guess I just needed to get whatever "it" was out of my system. I am taking a bike ride now, please check in later for more!
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