Paradoxes of Life

Two weeks ago one of my AP Language vocab words was paradox, but now, just two weeks later, I am living through one. The play has almost reached its climax, we have one and a half more weeks of rehearsals, all of these from 3:30 pm to 9:00 pm. Since our school day starts at 7:30 am, home feels like a faraway fantasy much less sleep. The last two days have been a simple matter of living in the present and not thinking ahead, just to stay a float in my complex school life. Two AP classes, then math and science which NORMALLY takes perfect concentration to master, then of course staying social and civil to people when all you want to do is fall apart. And yet, even as I write this I'm not complaining, it's true I feel my mind and body is being physically drawn and stretched over the ends or the earth, that I can't think about the next day and not groan, but that's where the paradox comes in. The more I am being pushed to my limits the more excited I get, the more enthusiastic about life, and more serious and focused on what needs to be done. Make four videos simultaneously in Video Production? Sure! Start taking another class, online in a new format? Why not? Of course I understand this probably adds even more strain, but when I am in control of craziness in my life I relish it. I flourish and grow from it, the more things the better! Of course I'm going to crash soon, but for now I'm going strong and it's going good.