Dearest Readers,
Many things and changes have come about my life since last I wrote. I have thought about writing about them, tried to visualise putting the words to paper (keyboard) many times, but never could bring myself to do it. I am still not ready to go into detail, it's not a matter of ready or not, it's just this isn't the time. To breifly state I have had a lot of inner conflict about my life, values, and so forth. I feel they are not 100% under my belt, but I am definetly getting there. There is something today though that gave me courage to keep on the harder path of a spiritual life. See it's so much easier (OK I am going into this a bit) to just do what all the other girls in my school are doing, do what they do, just fade away from the teenage uninhabited temple. Today some friends of mine came over for tea (see, I will never be your average teen) and we were talking about ... I don't even remember but we got onto the topic of falling asleep. My two friends were talking about how it's always hard for them to fall asleep because they think so much and cannot quiet there thoughts down. Now I will not venture to say that I am livivng in the present state, but I barely think, and I do feel there is a clear shift in my thoughts, also, when I want to stop thinking before sleep I just do!! Done. Finshed. Complete! I know it hasn't always been this way, when I was younger I would have to listen to music to fall asleep, I think because focusing on it would quiet my mind.
That's all I have to say, thought you might find it interesting. Remember to comment!!!
Photo Credit: My mother, taken on halloween night while trick or treating.
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