The Bliss Project Continues

You, who are all reading this, are about to here the latest news about the bliss project. In other words, if you don't remember the huge science project I am doing with teens and meditation. So I had a meeting on Thursday to give people the official "before" survey, teacher the new people the mediation and do Nithya Dhyaan with everyone. out of the 12 people who said they where coming only three showed up. At first I thought I was disappointed. I stopped then and sort of looked at myself and realized as usual it was just my mind putting up a big fuss I was actually not bothered at all. After about 15 minutes of waiting I explained the mediation to the one new person, and then we did an abbreviated version of the Life Bliss Mediation.I was fine, but when I went home that night, nothing seemed to be right, everything possible seemed to be going wrong, the biggest things where that I was going to make a cake for my friends at school and we didn't have the ingredients. I don't know what happened to me, but I totally broke down. I was crying and could not control myself. I went up to my room and just lay on my bed shaking with sobs. then I picked up Living Enlightenment, Swamiji's main book and read a couple of sections. The last one I read was so powerful, the jist of it was was to let go of all your problems and let existence take care of everything. I kinda got myself together and started to work on my homework (which was a huge problem in it's self) later that night my dad came home and brought the 15 Cd's I had asked to burn to give to the Bliss Project participants. Well later on I found out he did it in Tamil, AKA a foreign language!!
I broke down again and went to bed just not knowing what to do. Oh before I went to sleep I somehow created homemade Christmas presents for all my friends, a braided bookmark, and embroidered pouch and a self-sewn hat. The next morning I was something of a terror to my parents, stomping around the house and declaring everything horrid. Somehow, my mother got me, all the materials I needed, and my homework on to the bus. Thank. You. Mom. The day was insane, trying to get all my participants to fill out the surveys, contact forms, and other info, but somehow everything fell into place AND I got more people!! so now I am sending out mediation files to them all, and hoping everything works out!