Perfectionism

Let me start out by saying outright that I am a perfectionist. I used to really deny it, but I am stating right here that I am, or rather was. Being a perfectionist means your Anya chakra is closed. Until it is open the spontaneous will not happen to you easily. I like to have everything just perfect, it might also be a bit of a control thing as I like to have things my way or I become someone you don't want to be around. This weekend though I had a huge breakthrough from this. First thing that really helped was the play another kid from the temple and I did. I had everything planned out down to the costumes, but it totally did not work out the way I wanted it to. During practices I started being fussy about how the Narrator said the lines, but I realized if we where to get anything done I would just have to let go, so I stopped. Then I was fussy about how "Swamiji" should be dressed but it was already on him, and no would change it.
OK so as not to bore you with details lets suffice to say not one thing planned this weekend went how I wanted or planned. I am not saying I am like amazingly unclutched or anything, but I am definitely on the road to recover from this problem. If I didn't let go in those situation I would have gone crazy, so I learned the hard way, I just had to let go. There was no other option!! So go me, I am learning, breaking from a cycle I have long suffered from.