So as in my former blog entry today I expressed concerns for feeling split in between. At about nine 0' clock she went to bed. My Dad was at the temple and my sister already asleep. The house was mine! OK I didn't do anything drastic, I just sat down at the imac, my Dad's school computer which he brought home for the weekend and I dearly love using, I checked my email, wrote a blog entry, checked facebook then saw that one video I posted in my last entry, watched half of it then it was time for morning message. So my actual problem that I didn't totally right about is still physically there but all my tension about it is gone. I have a clear understanding now of what I have to do. The thing is about me, every time I have a problem I become this big drama queen over it call my bestie in Seattle and cry to her while she tries to comfort me and give solutions and I just act like a complete know it all thing and then that night or sometimes even sooner I will happen to watch or read something of Swamiji's and no mater what my problem is, or what he says it solves my issue. Or at least how I view the issue which is the thing in this case. I still don't know what to do about my conflict, but now I realize it will resolve. It's just a matter of time, and I can't do anything about it, all I can do is stop my mind from chewing on it, and be blissful!!
I have wanted to use this picture for over six months, but never felt it to be the right time. Now I think it is time for me to show my "warrior picture" as I call it, my friend and I were playfully fighting with wooden swords I had made for a movie I was making I had just triumphed over her when this picture was taking in oh the wonderful heat of August
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